Prioritizing & Finding Solutions

Needing a lot of this lately

*I can’t guarantee this post won’t have bad grammar/typos. Too tired to see straight. 

I feel so behind on all my favorite blogs for the last two weeks. And I can certainly see my own numbers dipping too, but unfortunately this just has to be the case for right now.

The part time job (which shall henceforth be called PTJ to keep my blog as google safe as possible) is really doing a number on my schedule. The 5-10am shift is hard. Imagine how much you hate moving and unpacking all your boxes. Well yeah, that’s what we do. It’s not that I hate it, it’s just that it’s hard not to want to collapse when I come home, and I have a laundry list of things I need to do.

Let’s see…

First there is any freelance work that I have to do.

My next priority is exercising. I know I need to to this to keep sane.

After that comes job searching, and now roommate searching, which is another aggravating problem. It’s been hard as hell to find a roommate. Everyone has a fucking pet, and while my cat could probably tolerate a dog, he is totally freaked out by other cats. I just spent $60 to sign up for Westsiderentals.com, because Craigslist is just too full of scams and crazy people. It’s a two month membership and I’m also checking for cheap, one-bedroom apartments while I’m at it, but to make any significant difference I need to be paying around 700-$850 in rent, which is impossible anywhere in Los Angeles.

The priority to find a roommate/find a job is fairly equal. If I find a roommate, I will feel less urgent to find a full time job. And it might be possible then to leave the part time job fairly quickly (the crazy schedule will get to me eventually, I know it). But if I find a full time job fairly quickly, then that will possibly eliminate the need to move out, and also of course have to work the full time job. I feel like I need to change my game plan as well regarding job searching, because just sending it through a job board is yielding no results.

My next priority is equal parts errands, beach volleyball, paperwork, misc. to-do list stuff.

And finally comes blogging and reading your blogs. 😦

I sometimes wonder if my sense of desperation in these matters either makes me more productive, or is it bringing me more lack in my life. Let me try and explain.

I’m working my ASS off, and feeling like I’m getting little return. I’m putting it “out there” that I’m looking hard for a roommate and job, and trying to save money, yadda yadda. But I feel like I have to do this in order to stay on my game and not become complacent or unproductive.

On the other hand, have you ever noticed that things happen when you’re not trying hard at all? Like someone just approaches you and says, “hey we’ve been looking for someone like you at our company, wanna come by Monday for an interview?” Or that perfect person comes up to you and just happens to mention that they had a bedroom open up at their ocean-view apartment and it’s rent controlled.

I’m feel like I’m projecting that sense of lacking to the Universes, and that’s exactly what is coming back to me. But how does one chill out when they might blow through what is left of their emergency savings to pay for Sept, and possibly Oct because their producer is taking his sweet fucking time getting notes back to you? Just sayin’. Can you tell I’m cranky-pants? 🙂

Or maybe it’s just the lack of sleep talking.

Thoughts? On any of this? (I’m looking at you those that just hit the like button on my posts but never ever leave a comment) 🙂